Holding onto hot coals

Earlier this week I finally got around to configuring my iGoogle page. If you haven’t set one up yet, you should do it. I like that I can have several important (to me) things on one page and I especially love that it has a To Do list right there. I’m constantly wanting to jot down reminders to myself and I either can’t find a pen or if I do, I end up losing the little slip of paper to a pocket abyss or the paper/receipt monster that lives in our house. So yes, iGoogle To Do list = Happy Amy. I added in some news headlines, of course my gmail, weather info for my city, a dictionary search bar, and a Buddhist Thought of the Day.

The first Buddhist Thought of the Day I read a few days seemed like it was written just for me. It said: “Holding onto anger is like grasping onto a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else. You are the one who gets burned.” – Buddha

I am always doing this. I have the hardest time letting things go.

Take today for example. I’m trying to sell some things we have laying around the house/yard on Craigslist. I posted an ad for 12 steel fence posts that we used to block off part of our yard while we tried to reseed it last year. The posts have since come out and were just sitting around. I had no idea how much Jody paid for them originally so I just went ahead and listed them at $1 a piece or $12 for all 12. When I told Jody what I priced them at, he thought it was a little low. So I added $3 on and changed the ad to say 12 for $15. But this was after a few people had already emailed me to express their interest in them. When I replied to the second guy on the list to tell him that the first person found some other ones closer to her house and mine were still available, I told him that my husband asked me to ask for three more dollars and asked him if he was still interested, when could he pick them up, etc. His response? “Tell your husband, no thanks. Go ahead and spend some more of your time trying to sell them.” I’m sorry, but why the attitude? Why couldn’t he just say no thanks? Why act like an ass?

So I’ve been trying to figure out what this guy’s problem is all morning. I wanted to write back and tell him where to go, but I haven’t and won’t. I guess I could just post his email address here and everyone could spam him for me. LOL That might make me feel better. 😉 Just kidding. But seriously, I am trying to let go of this hot coal, but I haven’t yet and it keeps burning me. Why can’t I just let it go?

Perhaps this is yet another reason why I need therapy. Speaking of which, I should go make a phone call. 😉

10 thoughts on “Holding onto hot coals”

  1. Man Amy… sometimes that is why I hate craigslist. GRRR all he would have had to do like you said was say no thanks.

    ((HUGS))).. I’m sorry. Hang in there girlie and yea go ahead we will spam him BWWWAAAAHHAAAA lol.

  2. You know, I used to do the same thing. Any little thing that bothered me I couldn’t let go of – even when I knew I shouldn’t be bothered. Around about April, I decided I had to change thigns and started thinking positively, even if it seemed stupid, and I didn’t believe what I was thinking/saying (I also radically changed my diet, stopped taking all Rxs, stopped watching TV, etc, but that’s not my point). Anyhow, by now I don’t have that problem (much) anymore, things don’t bother me. I feel so radically different, my whole life has changed. You actually CAN change your own brain!

  3. Argh. Sometimes the anonymity of the Internet makes people say things they would never say to a person in real life. I don’t know why people behave in such troublesome ways, but I’ve seen it before. Maybe you can have a fun weekend and manage to forget Mr. Rude?

  4. I have a similar problem with letting things go, so I know how much that would bother me, too. I think that quote is fantastic. Think of all the ill will we bear unto ourselves from others that have wronged us. Do we honestly believe that they are engulfed in self-loathing for what they did. No, they did it, possibly thought once or twice about it and moved on. Every once in awhile things bubble to the surface that I thought I had gotten over. I wish I could move on fully as well. Maybe I need to put in a phone call, too. 😉

  5. You are not the only one. I too would be stewing about it all day. One thing I found that helps is to write it (your anger and what you want to say to him etc) all out (on some paper) and once it’s all out just chuck the bit of paper.

  6. I certainly use iGoogle too and one of the first things I set up was the Buddhist Thought of the Day. I’m a sensitive person, so if someone says something rude to me, I tend to dwell on it far longer than I should. I have to remind myself, on those rare occasions when it happens, that it’s nothing personal and try and look at that person from a place of compassion.

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